4:30 a.m. Thinking, July 21st, 2010
I’m thinking about what stops us from doing things. I’m thinking of the times I placed a hunting arrow, sharp end first, against the softest part of my throat/neck and with someone else stopping the other end, and I leaned into that arrow and snapped it with my throat/neck. I had done that 7 times in a group setting, a very large group, and it had not been an issue for me. Those 7 times I did that, I also watched many other people struggle to do the same thing, overcome with fear, anxiety, or whatever demons their mind dragged up for them.
What is truly fascinating to me is that those people could not see that, out of 3,000 people in a room, not a single one was hurt by the arrow, and use that proof as the power they needed to overcome their fear.
And then it hit me. I was paralyzed with fear. Something just didn’t feel right. It was to be my 8th time breaking the arrow in the same fashion. I typically want to go first in these situations, so my mind doesn’t have an opportunity to play tricks on me, yet this time, others wanted to go first and so I let them. Several people in our group of 12 got a bit freaked out, and all the while, my anxiety was building.
I ended up being the last to get an arrow, and when everything was ready, arrow and blocker in place, I couldn’t do it. I froze. I was paralyzed with fear! After about 10 minutes of cajoling, self-talk, and panic, I finally shut out the demons long enough to do it, and the arrow shattered. Why? What happened?
I’ve never really thought about what caused the panic in me, that paralyzing fear. Was it because I’d done it so many times before that I felt I didn’t need to do it again? Ego & Pride were what finally pushed me thru the block to get it done.
Where does this show up in your life? Where does it show up in your business?
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